The life, style, and derp of a small-town girl. Dress-up misadventures, crafting frustrations, and little obsessions can be found here.

This blog is full of my face. You have been warned.

 

Micro #dollmeet with @mechadolls in the office! I have to stay in controlled environments as much as possible during my week off from treatment, so I’m glad Aile could drop by. ♡

#ABJD #BJD #DollfieDream #Dollfinas #DD #MDD #Volks #Rise #Momo #Sasara #Saber #Nono #LUTS #KidDelf #KDF  #Lolly

Micro #dollmeet with @mechadolls in the office! I have to stay in controlled environments as much as possible during my week off from treatment, so I’m glad Aile could drop by. ♡

#ABJD #BJD #DollfieDream #Dollfinas #DD #MDD #Volks #Rise #Momo #Sasara #Saber #Nono #LUTS #KidDelf #KDF #Lolly

Super Cheat Mode: Sew doll into oversized dress because I HAVEN’T SEWN ANYTHING IN HER SIZE YET HUHUHU

#BJD #LUTS #KidDelf #KDF #sewing

Super Cheat Mode: Sew doll into oversized dress because I HAVEN’T SEWN ANYTHING IN HER SIZE YET HUHUHU

#BJD #LUTS #KidDelf #KDF #sewing

No more IV lines! I’m very grateful for advancements in medical technology that have allowed me to have a mostly pain-free experience. But man, it feels great not to have to worry about accidentally lying down on my lines or yankimg them!

No more IV lines! I’m very grateful for advancements in medical technology that have allowed me to have a mostly pain-free experience. But man, it feels great not to have to worry about accidentally lying down on my lines or yankimg them!

The Leukemia Diaries, part 4 - Losing hair but not losing hope.

In the topmost photo, I kept track of my hair loss progress. The picture on the left was from when my hair first started really coming out in clumps so my hair still looks pretty thick, and the picture on the right is my most recent. My head looks really round, heehee.

If you’ve known me for a while, you probably already know that I like keeping my hair long, even during the hot summer months. I didn’t cry when the doctors said I’d lose my hair because of chemotherapy, though. Instead, my hair loss experience has been a mix of “AAAAAHHH I YANKED OUT SO MUCH HAIR!” and “Wow, my hair is thick.” with a bit of “How much longer will it take for everything to fall off?” I’m not mourning my hair, since it’ll probably grow back healthier than before. :P

In the meantime, my dad seems to be enjoying having a guinea pig for headscarf styling. He even pulled off the Leia buns look, and now both my ears are nice and warm in the cold hospital room. XD

My dad got me some stoles to use as headscarves, and he tried to replicate the style he saw on the mannequin in Uniqlo. XD yep, you read that right, my dad did this.

My dad got me some stoles to use as headscarves, and he tried to replicate the style he saw on the mannequin in Uniqlo. XD yep, you read that right, my dad did this.

Kawaii in Manila is the second event I’ve missed because I’m confined. :( I was planning to wear my Rarity gijinka if I couldn’t pick out another outfit.
Also, I am in love with @gothiclolitawigs Farrah collection. The version I’m wearing is from their limited run for summer, which is a bit shorter. The redesigned Farrah looks fantastic, I’m actually eyeing a few to add to my collection soon. <3 #gothiclolitawigs #iamdolluxe

Kawaii in Manila is the second event I’ve missed because I’m confined. :( I was planning to wear my Rarity gijinka if I couldn’t pick out another outfit.

Also, I am in love with @gothiclolitawigs Farrah collection. The version I’m wearing is from their limited run for summer, which is a bit shorter. The redesigned Farrah looks fantastic, I’m actually eyeing a few to add to my collection soon. <3 #gothiclolitawigs #iamdolluxe

This is just one of the many @gothiclolitawigs that I&#8217;ll be using during my recovery, once I&#8217;m out of the hospital. This is a retired style, but they&#8217;ve redesigned it as the Duchess Elodie line! ♡ #IamDolluxe #GothicLolitaWigs

This is just one of the many @gothiclolitawigs that I’ll be using during my recovery, once I’m out of the hospital. This is a retired style, but they’ve redesigned it as the Duchess Elodie line! ♡ #IamDolluxe #GothicLolitaWigs

The Leukemia Diaries - Part 3
Today is the first time I’ve cried during the entire treatment process.

If you follow me on Facebook, then you’ve probably seen my post about my throat closing up as a reaction to my very low platelet counts. This has made it difficult for me to swallow anything.

Today, it got so much worse. I cannot eat, and I can barely drink, so the doctors had to put me back on IV nutrition. That milky-looking bag is sustaining me right now, thank goodness. 

Without real food, though, I’ve become even weaker. I spent most of my morning and early afternoon sleeping. I might be quiet for a few days because of this. :(

I cried because I felt like I was back at square one, before I got into the hospital. Couldn’t eat and could barely drink. My doctors switched all my tablets to IV meds because I can’t take meds orally anymore.

The Leukemia Diaries - Part 3
Today is the first time I’ve cried during the entire treatment process.

If you follow me on Facebook, then you’ve probably seen my post about my throat closing up as a reaction to my very low platelet counts. This has made it difficult for me to swallow anything.

Today, it got so much worse. I cannot eat, and I can barely drink, so the doctors had to put me back on IV nutrition. That milky-looking bag is sustaining me right now, thank goodness.

Without real food, though, I’ve become even weaker. I spent most of my morning and early afternoon sleeping. I might be quiet for a few days because of this. :(

I cried because I felt like I was back at square one, before I got into the hospital. Couldn’t eat and could barely drink. My doctors switched all my tablets to IV meds because I can’t take meds orally anymore.

The Leukemia Diaries, Part 2 – The Makeover Edition

Not everything that’s gone on during my hospital stay has been purely medical. I’ve lost plenty of weight since I entered the hospital, mostly from loss of muscle tone, so my legs and arms have gotten pretty lean, and my ribs are starting to show. :( I feel like my entire stay so far has been a transformation sequence of sorts.

Suddenly, Teeth!

With my lowered immune system, the doctors want me to avoid ending up with any breaks in the skin, so we’ve been careful. I can’t shave, I can’t pluck my eyebrows, all that jazz. When I mentioned that my braces were poking the inside of my upper lip, all my doctors immediately viewed it as a threat and scheduled a trip to the in-hospital dentist like there was no tomorrow. XD I’ve had my braces for five years, since I kept missing dentist appointments, so they were long overdue for removal. Of course, the dentist had to be careful not to wound my gums, so she had to do a bit of scraping to really get rid of all the cement that had held my brackets on pretty well for years. D8

So I suddenly found myself with no more metal in my mouth. No longer struggling to brush food outta my braces!

Hair Horror

I think the most common thing people know about chemotherapy is that there will be hair loss. My doctors warned me about this early on, and I’ve come to terms with it. I’ve spent a good part of the last year growing out my hair, but if it’s part of the recovery process, then I won’t cry over it. I’ve been blessed with thick hair, and I know it’ll grow back. I will have an excuse to wear all my wigs, woohoo! <3

I decided to cut my hair because it was already falling off in bunches and my bed always looked like a Japanese horror movie set. XD

My hair already reached my waist when I’d been admitted, but I decided to Mulan it off. I thought I could just tie it all together and run scissors right through it. Two words: BAD IDEA. I’m currently pretty weak,  so I could barely hack through my hair. My dad had to take over and cut through most of it, but he let me do the last cut (which I posted on Instagram). Then he proceeded to “polish” it by evening it out. He did a pretty good job, I think. Since all my hair’s gonna fall out anyway, I went with an asymmetrical cut for kicks. May as well have fun with it while it’s there. :P

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My family and I try to take things lightly when we can, and it’s stuff like these that have brought us closer together during this trying time. Aside from the physical makeover, I’m glad that I get to spend time with my parents.

#ThrowbackThursday to healthier days! I had so much fun with these girls at the @dolldelight meetup. &lt;3 I wish I could meet up with them in Kawaii in Manila. :(

#ThrowbackThursday to healthier days! I had so much fun with these girls at the @dolldelight meetup. <3 I wish I could meet up with them in Kawaii in Manila. :(