The life, style, and derp of a small-town girl. Dress-up misadventures, crafting frustrations, and little obsessions can be found here.

This blog is full of my face. You have been warned.

 

Marching to the beat of my own drum. (on LOOKBOOK.nu)
I learned early on that many of the things I’m passionate about were not… “normal.” People normally expressed confusion, sometimes even outright condescendence, at my hobbies and collections.
Theater played a major role in my childhood, it’s my first love. I guess I owe my love for the more dramatic things to that. Transformation became my hobby, something that I wanted to do even offstage. It took me years to finally start living my “mahou shoujo transformation” dreams, but I don’t think I’m giving it up for a long while.
When going with anything “unusual,” one is bound to encounter people who are against everything you do. “Why do you wear wigs? They’re gross” or “Why can’t you be normal?” are examples of what people have said to me. I don’t really like “normal,” but I don’t force other people to enjoy what I like, because I respect that people are different and will therefore like different things. I often wish I could ask the same of others.
People will fear or dislike anything that they do not know much about. If we could instead choose to learn more about these things and respect that people enjoy these, no matter how unusual these are, I think we’d all get along much better. As long as you aren’t actually hurting anybody (within reason, of course, because some people are easily offended by anything and everything), I think it would be best not to listen to the naysayers. I’ve considered giving up my hobbies before, but I’m still doing them, because they make me happy.
~ Vanessa
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Outfit breakdown on LOOKBOOK.nu
Photography by JR Madrasto
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Marching to the beat of my own drum. (on LOOKBOOK.nu)

I learned early on that many of the things I’m passionate about were not… “normal.” People normally expressed confusion, sometimes even outright condescendence, at my hobbies and collections.

Theater played a major role in my childhood, it’s my first love. I guess I owe my love for the more dramatic things to that. Transformation became my hobby, something that I wanted to do even offstage. It took me years to finally start living my “mahou shoujo transformation” dreams, but I don’t think I’m giving it up for a long while.

When going with anything “unusual,” one is bound to encounter people who are against everything you do. “Why do you wear wigs? They’re gross” or “Why can’t you be normal?” are examples of what people have said to me. I don’t really like “normal,” but I don’t force other people to enjoy what I like, because I respect that people are different and will therefore like different things. I often wish I could ask the same of others.

People will fear or dislike anything that they do not know much about. If we could instead choose to learn more about these things and respect that people enjoy these, no matter how unusual these are, I think we’d all get along much better. As long as you aren’t actually hurting anybody (within reason, of course, because some people are easily offended by anything and everything), I think it would be best not to listen to the naysayers. I’ve considered giving up my hobbies before, but I’m still doing them, because they make me happy.

~ Vanessa

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Outfit breakdown on LOOKBOOK.nu

Photography by JR Madrasto

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I’m on Model Mayhem!
I finally got around to signing up. XD Though I’ve gotten inquiries mostly from folks in the US, I can’t promise stuff yet because I’m not sure if I’m going this year! I’m based in the Philippines, so if any photographers out there want to get in touch, message me here or on Facebook and maybe we can work something out. :)
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I’m on Model Mayhem!

I finally got around to signing up. XD Though I’ve gotten inquiries mostly from folks in the US, I can’t promise stuff yet because I’m not sure if I’m going this year! I’m based in the Philippines, so if any photographers out there want to get in touch, message me here or on Facebook and maybe we can work something out. :)

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I dislike Mondays. 
So sometimes I like to pick out pictures where I look happy, and share them. I need happy vibes and pick-me-ups. Any suggestions? :)
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Photography by JR Madrasto
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I dislike Mondays. 

So sometimes I like to pick out pictures where I look happy, and share them. I need happy vibes and pick-me-ups. Any suggestions? :)

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Photography by JR Madrasto

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Late Thanksgiving Post!
Here in the Philippines, we don’t really celebrate Thanksgiving, but I consider it a good reminder that we do have so much to be thankful for.
I am thankful I’m alive, and that I’m in relatively good health.
I’m thankful for my parents, my family, and friends who have supported me and put up with my weird/awkward/out-of-this-world activities. XD They’ve been there for me when the pressures from life become a little too much for me to handle, and they pressure me just enough to get me to do my best.
I’m thankful for my sponsors, without whose generosity I would probably not be able to do what I love. They’re the ones who cover for most of my wardrobe and wigs and things, and I wouldn’t be able to have all these fun photoshoots without them!
I’m thankful for all the photographers I’ve had the opportunity to work with. The “newer” photographers who I’ve grown with, and the “older” photographers who’ve shot me even though I considered myself so unworthy!
I’m superduper thankful for all my followers across the social networks that I use! In Facebook, where I’m most active. You guys give me great feedback. :) In my dress-up Tumblr, where I’ve received such sweet messages. In YouTube, where people have been commenting and messaging me. I know I haven’t been as active there, and some of my followers actually message me in FB and Twitter, asking me to go back to posting! I swear, I’m prepping stuff for 2014. XD In Twitter, where you guys put up with all my disjounted thoughts and random musings. In Lookbook, where I’ve only just started posting again. And even the followers of my dollie blog in Livejournal, you’ve all been such sweethearts. Thank you, all of you! ♥
I’m also thankful for the people who told me “no” when I was much younger. The ones who told me I wouldn’t go very far, the ones who bullied me in elementary school, the ones who told me that weirdos like me have no place in society. Because of you, I’ve grown stronger, and I’ve followed my dreams.
I’ve got plenty more to be thankful for, probably way too many to fit in this post. XD But suffice it to say that I do appreciate every single kind word, every opportunity, every sponsored item, every silly message, and every conversation (whether a quick one or something that lasted hours). Every “no, you can’t” that attempted to bring me down, and every “yes, you can” that made me push myself even more.

Thanks, you guys. ♥ I have so much love and appreciation for all of it!
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Photography by JR Madrasto
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Late Thanksgiving Post!

Here in the Philippines, we don’t really celebrate Thanksgiving, but I consider it a good reminder that we do have so much to be thankful for.

I am thankful I’m alive, and that I’m in relatively good health.

I’m thankful for my parents, my family, and friends who have supported me and put up with my weird/awkward/out-of-this-world activities. XD They’ve been there for me when the pressures from life become a little too much for me to handle, and they pressure me just enough to get me to do my best.

I’m thankful for my sponsors, without whose generosity I would probably not be able to do what I love. They’re the ones who cover for most of my wardrobe and wigs and things, and I wouldn’t be able to have all these fun photoshoots without them!

I’m thankful for all the photographers I’ve had the opportunity to work with. The “newer” photographers who I’ve grown with, and the “older” photographers who’ve shot me even though I considered myself so unworthy!

I’m superduper thankful for all my followers across the social networks that I use! In Facebook, where I’m most active. You guys give me great feedback. :) In my dress-up Tumblr, where I’ve received such sweet messages. In YouTube, where people have been commenting and messaging me. I know I haven’t been as active there, and some of my followers actually message me in FB and Twitter, asking me to go back to posting! I swear, I’m prepping stuff for 2014. XD In Twitter, where you guys put up with all my disjounted thoughts and random musings. In Lookbook, where I’ve only just started posting again. And even the followers of my dollie blog in Livejournal, you’ve all been such sweethearts. Thank you, all of you! 

I’m also thankful for the people who told me “no” when I was much younger. The ones who told me I wouldn’t go very far, the ones who bullied me in elementary school, the ones who told me that weirdos like me have no place in society. Because of you, I’ve grown stronger, and I’ve followed my dreams.

I’ve got plenty more to be thankful for, probably way too many to fit in this post. XD But suffice it to say that I do appreciate every single kind word, every opportunity, every sponsored item, every silly message, and every conversation (whether a quick one or something that lasted hours). Every “no, you can’t” that attempted to bring me down, and every “yes, you can” that made me push myself even more.

Thanks, you guys.  I have so much love and appreciation for all of it!

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Photography by JR Madrasto

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Split Personality on LOOKBOOK.nu

Ever since the first time I tried on a split wig, I thought I looked like an idiot in one. It was a pink and mint split wig, and maybe I looked nice in it to other people, but I’ll never know, because I sold the wig as quickly as I could. I tried again with a pink and lavender split, but it still looked bad.

The first split wig I got along with was a chocolate/milk tea split. The colors were more natural, and though milk tea-colored wigs normally look bad with my skintone, the chocolate brown helped to anchor it down. That was my first split wig success story.

This wig is actually sponsored by GLW, because I placed in their GLW Model Search in 2012. It took me forever to shoot with it, and it got phased out. I feel really bad about that! D: but we’ve sorted it out, and I’m shooting something else for them! ♥ ♥ 

I was really hesitant about this particular wig, because teal isn’t exactly my top choice for a wig color. I agreed because I felt like it would be a good challenge. I’m still trying to see if I can make it work with my other stuff, but this is what I’ve managed to come up with, so far. :D Less cutesy, and more leg. Split personality, maybe? /shot

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Photography by JR Madrasto

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The Little White Dress
People keep talking about the Little Black Dress (LBD) and how it’s an absolute style essential. I don’t deny that - I actually own 7 LBDs in varying degrees of formality - but I feel that the Little White Dress deserves some loving, too.
White clothes are often avoided because they’re giant stain targets. If you’re careful, though, your whites can go pretty far. I decided to dress this up by adding glittery pumps and a clutch, with an updo. It could be dressed down with a denim jacket and sneakers, too.
Yes, I know that white isn’t exactly the most forgiving color in terms of creating illusions of curves or defining shape, but the LWD comes in so many styles and cuts that there’s bound to be at least one out there for you. It’s a lighter, breezier option. (Can you tell yet how much I adore white?)
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Photography by Life Dawn
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The Little White Dress

People keep talking about the Little Black Dress (LBD) and how it’s an absolute style essential. I don’t deny that - I actually own 7 LBDs in varying degrees of formality - but I feel that the Little White Dress deserves some loving, too.

White clothes are often avoided because they’re giant stain targets. If you’re careful, though, your whites can go pretty far. I decided to dress this up by adding glittery pumps and a clutch, with an updo. It could be dressed down with a denim jacket and sneakers, too.

Yes, I know that white isn’t exactly the most forgiving color in terms of creating illusions of curves or defining shape, but the LWD comes in so many styles and cuts that there’s bound to be at least one out there for you. It’s a lighter, breezier option. (Can you tell yet how much I adore white?)

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Photography by Life Dawn

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Project: Siren Song (update 2 - hair)
I originally wanted to do long, loose waves for this project, but realized it would cover up the top part of the bodice of my gown. Since there’s supposed to be a bit of beadwork there, I don’t want to cover it up with my hair.
I decided to go with a more 60’s beehive look so that my shoulders and neck are left bare for accessorizing, and my gown won’t be covered by hair. My real hair is definitely not long enough to do this, so I’m using one of my favorite wigs for it. The headband’s temporary, I’ll be making a headdress to match the beadwork I’ll be doing on the dress. I just wanted to show where the bump starts. 
Currently loving the bangs flipping away from my face, and the tendrils near my ear that frame my cheeks. I’ll be doing a different update for the makeup sometime. :)
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Project: Siren Song (update 2 - hair)

I originally wanted to do long, loose waves for this project, but realized it would cover up the top part of the bodice of my gown. Since there’s supposed to be a bit of beadwork there, I don’t want to cover it up with my hair.

I decided to go with a more 60’s beehive look so that my shoulders and neck are left bare for accessorizing, and my gown won’t be covered by hair. My real hair is definitely not long enough to do this, so I’m using one of my favorite wigs for it. The headband’s temporary, I’ll be making a headdress to match the beadwork I’ll be doing on the dress. I just wanted to show where the bump starts. 

Currently loving the bangs flipping away from my face, and the tendrils near my ear that frame my cheeks. I’ll be doing a different update for the makeup sometime. :)

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Did you miss Project: Siren Song (Update 1 - gown)?

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I’m a bear, rawr!
I got my very first kigurumi! :D I’ve been wanting one, and I’ve been collecting Gloomy Bears for a couple of years, and this particular kigu was one that I couldn’t get my hands on. A friend of mine decided she would let go of this, so I pounced on it right away!
There are no words to accurately describe the feeling of the first time you slip into a kigurumi. I just felt like I was wearing my favorite blanket. XD 
That settles it, this will be my default con-going outfit if I don’t have a cosplay in mind. BAHAHAHA
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I’m a bear, rawr!

I got my very first kigurumi! :D I’ve been wanting one, and I’ve been collecting Gloomy Bears for a couple of years, and this particular kigu was one that I couldn’t get my hands on. A friend of mine decided she would let go of this, so I pounced on it right away!

There are no words to accurately describe the feeling of the first time you slip into a kigurumi. I just felt like I was wearing my favorite blanket. XD 

That settles it, this will be my default con-going outfit if I don’t have a cosplay in mind. BAHAHAHA

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Maintenance Shenanigans

A car mechanic-themed pin-up shoot, yay! I’m not the best person to have around for car maintenance, but I definitely had fun (literally!) poking around under the hood. The ‘69 Camaro’s gorgeous, I wanted to take it home! I couldn’t find the keys, though. *whistles casually*

Sometimes, I don’t know anymore how the shoots start out. Sometimes it starts with the clothes, and the props/location search follows. Other times, the sexy car’s just sitting there and you do what you can to build your shoot around it. I think the latter was what happened here. The car never even left the garage. XD

'Twas definitely a liberating experience to touch all the dirty/dusty parts of the garage and not caring if I end up smudging dirt on myself while shooting. Maybe it'll get dirtier next time around? 

Plenty of thanks to Mr. Norman Castillo for allowing us to shoot with his car! I’m definitely looking forward to shooting with it again. :D

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Outfit Breakdown:
Wig: Gothic Lolita Wigs
Polka dot romper: thrifted
Polka dot bikini top: Arena (part of set)
Heels: ComfortPlus

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Photography by Mark U./Coffeebugg

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Light & Easy (on LOOKBOOK.nu)

I find white an easy color to coordinate with. Some people steer away from white because of various reasons, ranging from “I don’t have enough white clothes for an outfit” to “I don’t want to become a giant target for food stains!” 

I’m pretty picky with the white pieces that I choose. I usually go for lacy numbers like this one, because they can be dressed up or down just by layering them with other pieces. For this outfit, I decided to go with a dominantly white scheme with brown and nude-colored accents and finished it off with a pair of heels that I customized to my taste.

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Outfit breakdown:
Belt (used as headband): B+AB
Ruffled mini-dress: thrifted
Lace maxi dress: thrifted
Shoes: Calvin Klein, customized
Bag: M’Lady

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Photography by JR Madrasto

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