Bringing Back Wonderland
I didn’t get to post about it the other day, but December 17 was my “Lolita Birthday.” It was on that day, back in 2010, that I first got to wear lolita fashion. It was admittedly a sub-par coord
and I will forever keep the pictures buried, but it’s what really pulled me in.
Lolita fashion is my personal Wonderland. I get to try things that I normally wouldn’t, sewing-wise. I get to see a lot of beautiful, quirky, and creative outfits from the worldwide community. I’ve even made friends because of it, people who I hold close to my heart.
The past year or so has been interesting for me. Contrary to popular belief, I don’t just dress up and have photo shoots all the time. XD I switched jobs (from ESL teacher to Executive Assistant), I’ve learned things the hard way, survived a couple of heartaches, and had my share of little victories. I’ve been writing for Scene Index for a couple of months now, and I’m trying to make time to update this blog and my (currently dusty/semi-deserted) doll blog.
One thing I’ve noticed is that I struggle to be happy. Sure, I’m generally happy, but not “I’m so happy I could die” kind of happy. Nothing drug-induced, I’m just after that natural high when I’m having fun. Then I figured it out: I wasn’t dressing up as much, particularly lolita.
Each time I don the frills and poofiness for a shoot, I start feeling happy. Okay, first I get irritated because the tights are too tight, and the petticoats are too poofy, and why-can’t-I-get-this-dress -to-zip-up? THEN I start getting all the feelings of happiness as I look at the mirror and nitpick the details on my outfit. I feel like a cupcake-princess-poof-fairy and everything’s just fine.
It might seem like a shallow thing to other people, but I have been dressing up - whether in costume or “unusual” fashion - ever since I was young, and that’s something that I will not let go of easily. It’s a part of me, and it’s part of what keeps me happy.
I hope I get to dress up more in 2014, because I’d really like to bring back my Wonderland.
Photography by Luisa Manuel
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